I need my friends

The calendar keeps moving up and I wish it would stop.
Pretty soon the date will be here and my heart is going to drop.
Who will be here to help me as I gasp for every breath
because I don't have a son to put upon my breast?

I'm trying to take it easy and take each day as it comes
but one more shower; one more announcement and I'll surely run.
I want to go away where no one has a round belly
and no one smiles because being fake is getting old already.

I need my friends to understand that mostly I'm ok
But sometimes I'm trapped in a box and can't get out (like today).
The summer's coming up and I should be about to burst
but instead I feel phantom kicks and they're really starting to hurt.

If I'm acting a little odd just simply say to me
"it's ok for you to feel the way you do"; "You're ok with me".
I'll smile my most sincere smile and want to hug you so
because those words are what I need to hear more than you can know.



I know some of you are awesome about reading up on this site. Please, pass the word around. I really need hugs, cyber or IRL. I'm doing ok, but the cycle's starting again, and I really need to know that you are by my side.

Love,
Me