Gina

You called and asked for forgiveness, but you already have it.
The problem is I just don't have it in me to forget I have been abandoned.
Everyone seems to have forgotten that I am a grieving mother
and want me to move on; we're even trying to have another.

You are my sister, and by my side you should have been.
I can forgive your absence; I forgave you then.
But I can't forget that while I grieve I look around and only Joe I see.
Trust me, this is a very lonely place to be.

Friends have come, and some have gone. I try to understand
but the fact is only few have taken my outstretched hand.
My grief is a burden that not many have tried to undertake
so please forgive me if it seems as if you I have forsaken.

It's hard for me to wake up and put my feet on the floor
when I know it's his urn I'll see outside my door.
So please don't think that I have time to hate
because I don't; It's only for my end that I wait.

I will always love you and remember with so much joy
the memories of my big sister who I looked up and would even annoy
but right now I don't have what it takes to make you understand
that I can't deal with this; I've given it to His hands.