My emotions are everywhere, and it's driving me nuts. I have enjoyed my time at home because I'm safe...away from social pressures and demands to be more than what I am right now...a happy, grieving, in love, tired, exhausted mommy.
I'm so excited because a dear friend just got a bfp, and I just know that she'll be bringing home her baby. She has lost three sons, and my heart is in my throat just waiting for the all ok from her.
I'm also sad because it shouldn't be me any more. I have found several clinics that do tubal reversals, and if I can get fate to cooperate, it shouldn't take more than a year to save up for it. I don't necessarily want another baby (yeah, right), but I do want to be free from the symptoms after the tubal.
Anyway...just rambling :)
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