Changes

It's been a LONG time since I've updated, so I think I oughta :)

I am pregnant, and this time, we are probably bringing home our rainbow :) Hannah Elizabeth Grace will be here in over a month!!! She's healthy, happy, and beautiful! She was not planned, but is so very welcomed and celebrated!

Joe and I have had a rough time. Not marriage wise, of course!! Joe's business closed, and I've been the main breadwinner. My husband is a hell of a man, having become great through his own life lessons and without anyone's help. He will get back on his feet in God's time. Meanwhile I am here to support him and the kids. Problem? I'm going to be out of work for a few months while I recover. EEEK! But again, God's in control of this ride, kwim?

I'm sad to say that one of the side effects of losing children has been the loss of family. My sisters both lied and said they'd be at our first son's service, and never showed. They never acknowledged our second son. No love lost...really, I will NOT bat an eyelash at anyone that puts themselves above my children. But I've lost my father. He expects me to 'make up' with the sisters, but I have no desire, nor ambition to. I didn't wrong them. He also acts as if I need to be like my mom, the perfect housekeeper. But I work outside the home, and don't drink to overcome the pain he inflicts. I give it back to him. Since he can't affect me, he's being nasty to my husband. I will not choose between my father and my husband...there is no competition. My husband is twice the man my father is...it's just sad. But, lexapro helps. :D

I have picked up quilting, and am enjoying it. It's fun! I don't have a machine, so I'm hand sewing. Insane :)

Anyway...I'll catch up again soon!